why the tales' fucking this way down. :(

School's been pretty rough on me..Everything's rushing..staying in school till late..get back home, just enough time to get some rest and head for the same shit, just different day..deadlines after deadlines..screwed test yesterday just didn't make my week any better..fucking set paper for geniuses..fuck you!! i think i'm gonna flunk D&B..fuck it! should i just quit school???

i'm going crazy seriously..nobody see's it but i know it..i'm always trying to cheer ppl up..crack the joke,be the joke,make everyone smile,laugh their hearts out..be there for them when they really needed it..putting the smile on their faces always..people only see the happy side of me..they like it that way, of course..maybe because i don't show it..but that doesn't mean you could take it for granted.

Fuck la Muddy, nobody gives a shit when you're all down..you're on your own la..fucking sorry man..get back up yourself!! just cut all the crap..don't even bother..they may just, pretend..talk is cheap..but the fact remains..you're just nobody to them at the end of the day..everybody got their own lives to live..you're just not as important like how they are to you..

and i think i just lost an old friend just because of a small matter recently..wtf man..he didn't talk to me much just now when i saw him..well, people change, so will you..

And i miss my bestfriend so god damn much. Should have met her like 3 days ago but she's always busy..And everybody else shouldn't cut the que to meet her laa!!!! like seriously..bloody hell..wait for your turn leh...keep postponed to the next day till now then meet other ppl instead of me..February's coming and she's shifting house soon and i'm gonna miss her pretty darn badly..i swear.. :(

Even now she's staying just next block i can barely meet her, what more later..i'm just afraid man..i cant lose her.. :/

terrible week..Gosh!!!

BYE.

Muddy's Bad Weekend

Last week went fast to barely rmb what happened..the weekend was fast..really fast.. i was all over the places in 3 days of the weekend..Who the fuck reads these junks anyway..

Friday headed late to Gerv's bday dinner at some Jap restaurant in UE square..Was entertained by this magician who claimed to be the deciple of that who taught Copperfield. His tricks were great though! Charm Takayama.. ;) Great entertainment for that night. Hoped Gerv had a blast.

Headed to Clarke Quay after that. They went REBEL except for me cos ran out of cash and anybody who knows me well enough knows i don't go clubs. Gerv left his vodka with me to hold on since i wasn't going back so soon cos there were no bus. so i sat by the river, like a good boy. Nah, if that were only to happen. Took my alone time to get some stuffs out of my mind for a bit. It's just me. It's hard to tell out stuff..it's rather i cant say it out, or no fuckin' body there when i really needed..this was just another way out for me..well, lets not get fuckin' emotional.

one sip after another, the next moment i was laying down, fucked up. i think from about half to less than a quarter bottle in like 2 hrs?? i know im fucked up. My brain's just a jerk to my body, makes me a big time motherfucker. Bestie came over after she finished work for a while before she left me sitting down again and waited for the rest to pick me up. I rmb i was dragged from one point to another by Gerv. Sorry i got fucked up on your big day man. :/ they went back in except for Ryan stayed by me..and i threw out a couple of times. Wasted!

Attended a wedding the next day, still spinning after the night. got back home a while, went town to meet BrandonBrian and Theresa shop for their new year. I joined Dom, Darren, Krystal at forum to 'study'. who was i kidding man. played Darren's ipad all the way. HAHA

Sunday?? nvm sunday.

BYE

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This week went by pretty fast. It's friday already..seems like ytd was new year..HAHAHA _|_

got back my results already..soo far all cleared except for D&B almost passed..heh. fuck it. still got the CDIO project to help me buck up. :)

for all you know, next week's the 3rd week of school alr... how fast time flies..

i've been having chest pains the couple of days, well, what else's to blame right?

well, i might just get some diesease that has mores alphabets then i have fingers on my hands..

for all you know, i might be dying or lying dead somewhere cos the organs are pretty rotten and like a time bomb waiting to trip off..lol

tuesday i found out how my dad does his job....

he sent me to the airport cos he was heading there to pickup a client and i was sending Wanting off..

he was damn late cos of the traffic jam..i guess the client was waiting pretty long alr..

and he was speeding so fast! fuhh..160 km/hr on the ECP,tell me that's not fast enough...

I got off, before he headed further up a bit to pickup the client..i saw him rushing to open the door for the client, get the luggages into the boot and quickly heading off..that's quite a tough job being a chauffeur for millionaires..you gotta be quick..chop chop.. cos their time is money..lol i realised he's been working so hard to support the family since, forever...the one who takes care of the bowl of rice that's on the plate everyday..

for all you know, that's what's he's been doing all the while..day and night..

i hope i can support my parents later onwards..

-muddy

Happy New Year!!!

Happy new year!!! it's 20/11, 7-11. HAHAHA ;)

had one of the great crazy nights ever closing 2010..30th, went celebrate Iwan's bday and lepak till 7 am the next day,31st..new years eve,woke up at 12 to helped out ryan to give out flyers for the flea outside cine for a bit..

went for dinner with jr n gang,before going down to meet xiong and za at suntec. wanted to countdown with the rest of their friends who were at esplanade, but was fuckin packed. so we decided to settle at boat quay to catch the fireworks..

head down clarke quay, got some vodka, sat by the river.Za and i were high already before the rest of them arrived..HAHA..i think we down it less then 1/2 hour and was shared between us only cos xiong didnt take liqour..lol. headed to another bridged somewhere i cant rmb wth was it, they opened another bottle but we didnt drink as much cos was enough alr,i think. ;)

left there about 3 and head back clarke quay to find bff and her friends. she was the only one drunk out of the three when i arrived,so was i..HAHA..we walked down chinatown, started crapping at each other, then disturb and laugh at other ppl,if i rmb clearly..HAHA..I think we looked retarded.

had supper at kampong bahru, took first bus back..ended laying at the playground..wrote our resolutions and exchanged to keep it..HAHA..the sun was up..breakfast at coffeeshop before heading home at 11...HAHA

HI, 2011, PLS BE GOOD.. HNY! d;)